I was 25 when I got my first vibrator. It was a gift from my partner at the time and I had NO masturbating experience prior. I had NO idea how to turn myself on and there was no one to teach it... my s€x life prior was only physical in nature, I wasn't experiencing mind blowing orgasms and s€x over-all felt empty. I didn’t know how to be a Lover and my high school boyfriend would make fun of me saying in bed I was like “a dead fish”. Truth is - I couldn’t even be offended because in my teens/young adult life I didn’t know anything different.
After moving to a Florida and getting into a new relationship I was inspired to awaken my s€xuality and learn how to please my partner. I was a stay-at-home girlfriend and was spending my days on YouTube watching Layla Martins channel. She has been my main s€x guru and it’s from her videos that I began to become a conscious lover. I began to practice my new skills with my boyfriend and as he didn’t seem to mind our love life was beginning to shape into its own unique creation. And finally started to feel like “I know what I’m doing”.
I began to get connected to my body, through daily self-love and care practices, I began to touch myself and feel what brings me pleasure and I began to experience life from a different perspective. I began to feel #𝐓𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐜.
I was connecting to all my senses and learning to slow down. I was meditating on #Yantras , chanting #Mantras , working with #Mudras and becoming really freaking #𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭 and going deep into my #spirituality.
I was beginning to get #intentional with my every experience by truly tuning into my #SENSES. I started to enjoy food differently, get aroused by the magical scene of Lake Eola (The most #magical sunsets,) I began to collect playlists and get serious with my music experience, I was practicing giving #sacredtouch & life began to 𝘍𝘌𝘌𝘓 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 #𝘈𝘓𝘐𝘝𝘌!
I believe when we awaken our inner Being the aspect of “turn on” no longer only relates to s€xual energy, but now you begin to make love to the little things in your daily life experiences and that has been one of my major transformations.